nov 12 th

as i come sailing thru the wind on a chilly night...
i cud hear screams rattling my mind.
dont know what to do, 
before the voice thrusts me to answer you,
i cud'nt hide nither cud i pretend, 
for i believed martyrs were never meant to live,
words ran across my mind, 
and piled up thoughts until i fall.
as i decide to confess and confine,
the emotions in me begin 2 ebb out.
the words were truth and strong,
strong enough to create silence in storm,
neither was an answer or few words,
a thought of those moments,love and love,
i did'nt crib neither did i beg,
 for i have decided to accept my fate.
"what u think is love is just a passin phase......"
and  now i live to die those words,
for it was never passin nor fake...
i did'nt have a reason to love.....
 so will i not have a reason to hate ....
and i shall continue to live this fate..
for i dont have a reason to quit...
so shall i love blindly without any reason....
as though a phase never happened after a dinner
i may be right or wrong,
 when the words stopped at 12 in the night
and long after,i write this for you
everytime i see, it pains me to see you being hurt
i am not wrong, i have chosen my fate 
i have won and lost the race....!!!

------------------------------------------------------dec8th





 

oct 14th

today was good...it as saturday .... evening we played football.... i missed two sitters in the first game...then we played full ground.......... 1 dribbler past 3 players and shoot ...the keeper falls wrong side ..but manges to keep it out with his toe.......second shot a header good one but straight at the keeper ....and then finally a goal after a lovely one touch play..........then a chip into the box and i headed it in ............ we won 2-1..!!

the hero comes back .tired.....zapped...and opens the lappy ..........suddenly he calls up the girl...she responds by accepting the offer to go out till end point ....but return before 8 !!! its 7 10 i accept it straight away ........ she comes and asks that she wud ride...k give it..!!! then the journey began............... but i am tired now...gotta sleep ..keep guessing.......... the hero came bak at 8 15 !!!

oct 11

the black beauty descends....a suzuki fiero !!! i got a bike in manipal...... bumpy , but venomous !! i love it !!!

our team - FC lost boyZ

skipper- vikram "zlatan" kiren thangavel: age 22

aerial ball specialist, good positioning skills and deadly co-operation.a good team man and one who gets the matches for us.

" WE HAVE NO SCARE, SO U DARE" ATTITUDE.

plays as a striker- center forward. capability to play as a lone striker and terrific at dead ball situations.good inspirer.

deadly shot- header
fav team- argentina
fav player - any argentinian striker

BALA- we call him " our version of gerrard".age 21
plays as attacking mid-field, central and defensive mid field also. a holder in the midfield and one who goes for long shots. covers a lot of grounds and very agile.ball winner and dead ball player also. adds a lot of variety to the mid-field. we also call him "work horse"or "oxen."his shots are mostly bullets.

fav shot- the drive
fav team- brazil
fav player- gerrard

BINISH BABU- " JOGA BONITA" KEEPS HIM GOING age 22

ask the keepers and they will say how deceptive he can be. deadly finisher and top pace with the ball. the "brasiliano style" of samba dance to finish the goal move. plays more like henry, drifting in the flanks and coming in towards. stamina bundled with keen sense of the game makes him a highly reliable striker. another magnum-57
favorite shot- the outside boot kick
fav team- portugal
fav player- ronaldinho

HEMANTH-" ONE TOUCH PLAY" AND " ATTACKING MID FIELDER/ WINGER"
AGE 21

playmaker , passer , one touch moves and occasional long shots. starts in the middle, but drifts towards the flanks " a winger inspired by CRISTIANO RONALDO". comfortable aerially and good at through passing. a team man and loves challenge--- the combo of binish, myself,bala, vikram in the team was deadly for the opposition to handle. perhaps sometimes made harsh tackles and some unwanted dribbles. but my team loves me....... i play my passion with my best buddies. that's life.!!!!!
fav shot- square finish and volley
fav team-england
fav player-owen and cristiano ronaldo

senthil-age 22, ( cmf /dmf) gerrard/gattuso combo

THE OTHER oxen in the mid field . likes to move up and good at tackling . holder and run thru player who likes to play thru defenses. agile, staminaaaaaaaa, and covers lot of ground. long shot specialist and ball winner. the mid field is incomplete without him.
fav player : gerrard
fav team -england
fav move- run thru and take a shot .


KARTHIK-THE " MASS" AGE 21
DEFENDER CENTRE BACK
inspired by fabio cannavaro. if u can get the ball beyond him.? atleast a single potential injury he can cause. a cool and calm defender. good at keeping strikers at the bay with his own style.
effecient . but good sportsman .....

fav move- back heel tackle
fav team - france
fav player- thierry" the god " henry

"IYER" CASILLAS AGE 21
GOAL KEEPER/ OCCASIONAL MIDDIE

power bomb ...try stoping his shot. the carlos of our team. good goal keeper and good reflexes . weak in grounders , but compromises on some stunning clearances of dead balls.
holder and simple passer. well built , so take him for a challenge if u want.
fav move--- pull back of the ball, toe kick for penalties.
fav team--- real madrid
fav player--- casillas

DIDA- " VINOTH"-- ALSO THE ASHLEY COLE plays side back(defense)
AGE 22
INJURY PRONE CAREER , 3 MAJOR FRACTURES IN 2 YEARS.
the better side backs u wud see in the game.attacking style with his favorite reverse pedalada.
good crosser and excelent tackler and diver.also a acrobatic parttime goal keeper.
call him and he is there for his duty, no matter who it is or how hard they are..he is ready for the game.
fav team- --england
fav move- reverse pedalada
fav player-- rooney

NATRAJ---la joga bonita style--- the cicinho type
age 19
side back/ defense

attacking side back who loves to come front . long throw and good aerially. hard fighter and dribbler. a team man , but injury prone slightly. good in dead balls and rapport with skipper.
good and enthusiastic player looking to atack and find new moves.
fav move-- roundhouse
fav player- ronaldinho
fav team-- brazil....



the squad will be continued in the next part.......

from mid field dynamo- senthil

farwell to our winger
so many dayz together v enjoyed playing fut ball....now one among the great united group is leaving away too far but not away from our heartz......he is the head of our team n he inspired everyone to play fut ball,his commitment to the game was great....at last on 13th mng v played a farewell game n after finishing the game our winger hemanth gave us a treat in pazha mudhir cholai.....v miss him a lot ...its almost no hemanth no fut ball

my brother's message

we are in the middle when players are moving on to lucrative contracts but they will be back coz this league has not been done with and never will be.we as the members will represent the league till we have strength in our legs and hope in our hearts. farewell to my bro.one of our greatest wingers ,certainly among the best.

farewell my friend- a send off message by " prodigous" zlatan vikram kiren thangavel.

FareWell My Friend!!!!
2day....a Lost Boyz FC Player....2mmrow...He Goes to a new League...A Change of Scene...A Change of Environment...New Challenges....New Grounds...New Teamz....and New Team Matez.....A Legendary Winger....Of Cult Status in our League....He Has Often Amazed us wit his array of Skills and Awe'd us wit his Dazzling Dribbling Skillz....!!!He Leaves us Back wit a lot of good memories....The Best Being the Equaliser @ the Vidya Mandir Showdown....And Sadly....He Also Leaves back an hole in our field....Which wasz his own Space in the Field wit No rivals 2 match him!!!....The Right Wing....Cristiano Hemanth as he is Affectionately Called.....Hemanth Kumar.....Leaves us 2mmrow for Manipal.......We Wish u All the Success both On and Off the Field.... FareWell My Friend....Herez All the Members of Lost Boyz FC wishin u a Very Successful Career Ahead!And Who Knows.... We all Mite jus meet again!!! May B as Rivals..... May B as in the Same Team Again...U Will Be Missed da!! Take Kare n Hav Fun...All the Very Best....Frm~Kiren~*Representing the Whole Squad of Lost Boyz FC!*

match2-group stage

match 2
after the first match .....we had our second qualification immediately in a span of 10 minutes !!!!!this time the stamina nerve pulled up ..most of us were tired !!! initially the game was played more at our half and shots triggered from various angles ....iker stood upto the task and pulled of some brilliant saves ..the special being a direct drive at his face ! the defence gave up and a screamer past our net from the mid gave them the lead !! the flanks were particularly dangerous with their runs into the centre ... i was involved in a tussle ( a 1 on 2 ) and came good with the challenge.!! the same opponent now made a master move .. a marseille roulette getting the crowd behind him ,he tried some passes but our mid field fought well!this time it was only nat who plyd as a solo defender !! a long cross froma goal kick aide by senthil was a floater into the opponents camp and vicky made a good aerial tackle to get that and played a chip onto the waiting bala..the header was good but the keeper was even better .even the recoshires were safely put away !the last few minutes saw some counter moves from our team with the presence of viggy ..his shot just missing the post !! now cometh the man .cometh the moment,,,, a good aerial tackle again by vicky and the ball was laid for bala ..it was a 1 on 1 situation with a bouncing ball and bala made a sensational move to jump and just squeeze it past the keepers hands ..1-1 and the final whistle blew .game over !!1 win and 1 draw in 2 matches played .!! kudos to lostboyz for their excellent committment !! we are now a recognised challenge !!! see ya later
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my last match for FC- lost boyZ-match1 group stage

the moment i realised i have got thru tapmi, i was all ecstatic except for the reason that i wont be able to play soccer for my club FC lost boyZ. 2 days before i left for tapmi , we had a vidya mandir play-offs and we won the group stage by topping our pool with 1 win and 1 draw. we made it to the quarter finals and after that i was transfered , i cud not play. we made one more stage further and then lost. i thought we were just another aspiring club , but destiny made us take another route.

my last match:
victory away from home !!! part 1
the game started with a perfect flavour, it was a tussle btw a tricky style team with a european style team !!!! line ups included debutant senthil ( midfield ) and viggy ( mid/winger )the formation at start was 2 3 1 with vicky leading the pack !!! natraj and meiappan were good at holding fort , bala and senthil covered most of the field .upfront the presence of vicky enabled good control in air balls !!and the opponenets started of well with some exciting youth talent in the wings !!!!
part 2 :
shots fired at our post and iker the iyer kept well to fend off some drives !!! no sooner badluck found us and we gave a lead !! the defence looked well until it cud not handle a 4 on 2 tackle !!! ..the game progressed and we made our presence felt with some good passing until i found the net from the left .. a low ground shot and the equaliser was done .... a little later a peice of combo in the midfield and debutant senthil made his mark with a trade mark grounder !!! in a few mts we won the match though the defence looked more solid this time and passes were cut at the center ..i missed from the same position to make it 3-1 !!! ...........
again a few chances from bala nd senthil .. manuveuring was done by vicky and cmae the final whistle ... we won our first match coming from behind to win it 2-1 !!good team work and stamina game helped us !!!

" yet another paradox"

there are moments when u can't read the lips,
moments where words would not come out.
times when the horizon disappears,
the rhythmic pulse of ur body stops.
the gods lose hope on you,
the eagles and evils gliding upon a prey.
a prey struck with greivance and grey.
can't imagine what a smile can do ,
even the creator did not really know.
all i feel is deviousness
a vision of unimaginable events.
can't see myself dead;
the soul left to wander on a death bed.

a sense of incompleteness that sets in,
events that question ur birth,
and relationships that gave this unkind death.
an end that man cannot justify;
stand alone and ur made to cry.
how could these moments a minute ago ?;
colourful and happy, green and indigo.
all of a sudden , gloomy and dark,
the wolves seem to howl and bark.
did u ever ponder upon ?;
why on earth love made u a moron?
its all the innocence of a heart,
too fragile to stand a poison dart.
now that u feel all is gone,
a feel that says ur life was never won !!

"24th"-paradox

i start off this poem by saying that " if u want to convey your feelings, let ur intentions speak through actions rather than few words by mouth ". there is nothing best than ur intentions to convey urself, follow them, coz if they are true , the path that it takes is honest and u will express what ur heart intended to rather than what ur mind wanted to....!!!

- anonymously written .

green trees spoke thru leaves,
made me wonder when there was no breeze.
rain drops rolled upon nose,
the umbrella shivered from cold.
bones turned brittle,
cartilages were frozen,
lashes were stiff,
the path seemed forbidden.
the trance in her lips,
scared me to heights.
a look at it,
gave me some sleepless nights.
two little fishes flashed at me,
my heart skips a beat everytime i see.
the very presence of her,
makes me go numb.
somehow i have a fear ,
can love be so dumb?
did she ever speak?
now i that i find myself weak!
there come moments in life,
her stares that peirce like knife.
a sprinter caught in a wrong foot,
and mercilessly tearing him apart.

i listen to those,
which i never intend to.
have i become so dull?
or is it her monsoon that's giving me a lull?
i remain silent with her.
a thought of losing invokes a fear

why do people say " love is blind"?
when i can't see anything but her.
the urge to walk alongside,
and pretend nothing to hide.
the wrath of denial,
the xtc of fusion!
would'nt take me to burial.

there would'nt be anything left to do so !!

effects of "economic behavior" on "individual as a decision maker"-this is what i did.

oranges and apples
budget is boring
sitting in the class
i feel like snoring
who the hell needs slopes
all these ache our ear lobes
he considers all facts
and says some are "max"
what about the values "min"
have they committed any sin
he likes to compare
hence we deal in pairs
he explains some weird concepts
the guys flaunt their biceps
some pretend to listen
some try to reflect a booze party within
but, no matter wat u say
and whatever be the day
i am always in the hawaiin bay
when people ask " how much did u pay?"
i replied" its my own way."

poetic ebb-"ur hand bleeds, what tore ur heart !"

I stumbled upon a early bird,
innonence of the dressed blue,
little did i know,
how far can a worm go,
open and silent ,
i sense a calamity,
vague as it seems,
my heart fails to breathe,
the posture of a "water bearer",
pushes my soul underneath.
every smile of her pounces me,
everytime she cuts a unseen scar.
hey pretty girl,
did u ever recognize?
once and all ,
did i make u realize?
up now,
living besides in the premise,
i think of ways ,
a heart can demise.
all my life,
the face denied to frown,
love and lust now stole the crown.
in and out ,
i could feel the pain.
never have humanity said " ur so insane."
an art of rage was carved on me,
time to question,
am i so sick?
alone in the night,
i feel her besides me,
zeal and purple made a date,
as i remember the fall to a bait.
reckless i was ,
when i embraced her name.
epitome of a ram,
she wud'nt care to see beyond.
then came the rains to bless me with a love key,
looking at the silver lining above,
tears from my eyes suggest a plea.
the twin consoled me ,
"you strive for ur desire ",but
"hope ur heart does'nt pay a fee".

poetic ebb......

the world is a mere exagerration,
people fight for non-existent satisfication.
mankind seeks sin and money,
a few see these funny.
he bleeds for accumulation,
falls in deathbed of suffocation.
i am at pains when i see them,
can't figure what they gain,
its a mayhem.
some lose their identity,
most end up in paucity.
the satan stares at their face,
humans don't bother about haste.
have u ever questioned?
whats my worth,if i cud'nt change.
grudge and lust has stolen ur hunger!

the "loomie" tunes of tapmi

ever wondered how "nasty" it could be if u had a loomie* who could play tunes orgasmic to ur ears? not long ago....this is the story of a kid caught among a chaos that he had to come all way long from his bed and request my loomie not to play the song loud.!! every action has a re-"action". so.......................the action continued.but much louder nowadays.so wat do u do ? adapt urself to the situation ??....yes ..!!! nowadays there are no comments on this issue!
my loomies are "nasty,santa,ant,ass**,porn,...blah blah...." these are the anagrams of their names.
every ec"h"o system has different type of organisms and these thrive on energy arising outta music. u wake up to a alarm...thats fine..but u also wake up the entire "t" flank to ur tunes....... they have adapted themselves.

the time has come for me to present their formal addressals- i am not at all proud to present them to you ..but still...
neil-" the jockey dripper"-
he uses a jockey. - fine
he washes them- thats gr8
he dries them on top of my bed- hmm.... not a good location
and he dries them when i am asleep , right on top of my face---- ****all man!!!!!

promit-" the guitarist"--- ask the girls ..how lovely he can play with his fingers....on the guitar. ( u thot something ..i knew that )

sanat- "nasty santa"- epitome of nerds....... when whole world is dying of poverty......this sweet ****** will come and ask u about " financial mathematics".
and finally the author " the human mark". whose patience count increases day by day ...living admist these unethical souls....!!!

i have to leave now..they saw me writing this..thats y !!!!!

my first blog

good things start bad. thats wat happened to me. my first id had to be abandoned cause of some problem . this is just a test blog.the train of thoughts are boarding the station." source-calvin".

hope it reaches u !