I kept thinking fast, moving fast and doing things faster. a wave of enthusiasm had engulfed me and i started loving what i was doing. i had to lose some on the way which could have cost me dearer later but fortunately they didn't. Living life with one thought in your mind was much simpler, the fact is u are never lost to decide upon something outside your mind. I had my priorities set right, they were few and concentrated upon the same. life became lighter and lighter until i kept flying high. i was never grounded on those memorable days. Talking about these to an good friend of mine, i felt good about my flying days. looking back i also take pride in what i did. as they say the path was cherished and taught me a lot. i was more passionate than ever before in my life and more thoughtful and single minded. i learnt to focus on things and learnt to execute them better. I was racing time and calender, patience built a castle in me until that chilly night back to my place. i kept a secret to myself till then that i wud never share my sorrows to anyone nor make people around me feel pity on me.one has to suffer his consequences to become better for the future. the truth could be that the consequence might even trigger a new beginning as i always hope for. but with time i brush it away to the side and get back on track to do what i do best. then it was gettin fast and worse, i started seeing things which i had'nt imagined. my dreams were different from reality. too far for me to understand anything goin around. i backtracked to check for mistakes, yes, quite a few, but they were open and i guess they spoke a lot about me. i had'nt followed what nature had advised mankind. i tried something different, too different for someone of my age. the thoughts that yielded my actions were'nt understood. perhaps it was my fault for choosing a different language, but again like music, love speaks only one language. the language of love itself. i understood, but i shud'nt have expected the other to do the same. i did and i suffered. thats when i realised the human way, a way with a mind and a chemistry on its own. i ardently solved the latter, i completely lost the former. though i cud'nt have done anything about it. my enthusiasm overlooked the scene. it took me above to show things that i have never seen and felt. i started liking the way, making me believe the end was even sweeter. after the chilly night, the end seemed farer, i was travelling the wrong path, there was no end and there was no fruit either, i was travellin with a stranger all of a sudden. she cud'nt understand what i was talkin. she used to wake up inbetween and ask me for water and biscuits, i assumed he had understood me and liked me for my way as a companio n. the thirst for water was there around for everyone and every passenger did the same when he was thirsty. perhaps it was too much optimistic of me to see beyond a companion. but she heard my stories, she laughed, she cried, she comforted me and made me feel better. i was'nt wrong about my decison to not let go of this person, i wanted to laugh, cry and comfort her the way she felt with me. it was true, the tears were warm i knew they came from deep inside. they must have come after a lot of turmoil too. i wanted her to travel alongside me, she understood my hunger better, my view and my way of travelling. i wasn't wrong, but i wasn't meant to travel alongside. i was packed light and i didnt travel with a map. may be he was too scared of my destination, may be my bag was'nt stuffed enough for her kind of travel. i did'nt bother to consider. they were not of much significance. but when she opened the window on one chilly night, i lost the plot. i thought i was travellin until then to some place but i wasn't. i had'nt sized up the situation. i read it hopefully and read it the way my mind wanted to see. the thirst for water was normal unlike any other living creature, the biscuits for hunger and some laughter/ cry to pass the travelling time too. maybe i stretched my mind to think about things alongside her. the journey beyond the destination was what i was all thinkin about. i was right in some way. i was planning the map ahead, but i forgot to ask where she was headin. she had different opinions. i had'nt. i just got one on the way. lucky. may be / may be not.
